Tribes, intuition, and connection

These are our thoughts feelings and experiences. We accept responsibility for them. We understand your journey may be different. We honor and respect that. Wishing you effortless joy. Eloise and Jake


So.......... for 4-5 weeks I have been in this place....vague irritability, aware that change needs to occur, knowing that vibration levels are different...having trouble getting quiet, could hear voices (guides chattering, but feeling love), so knew it was them….. but no clear message....

Last fall I had gotten a message that said.. “you don't need to go somewhere else for your answers....., and that energy work from another, was great, but that if i was truly in touch with myself and facilitating my own healing, i wouldn't need to go anywhere...” so I have been trying to work on my issues from the inside out.

I went and got a massage anyway….. and things got worse......probably all the issues coming to the surface.

Now irritability and downhill slide started about the time that Gus was attacked. (for those of you who don't know, our beloved lab boxer mix was attacked by a neighbor dog, and crushed his leg, requiring very expensive surgery)

And 4-5 weeks of watching a dog with an external fixator deal with three legs, pain and a few other complications, was very intense: I know that I was experiencing compassion fatigue

Work was frustrating and to top it all off.. we have had a very cold winter, I was feeling like cabin fever was setting in, and this was the weekend we were suppose to be in the Dominican Republic on vacation. Canceled the trip due to the cost of Gus, and not wanting to leave him with anyone, due to his care required with this splint and 8 screws in his leg.

So I took the time off from work any way; and listened to my intuition.

So there are several important things I want to share here…..
#1 always listen to your intuition. I wasn’t sure what I was really going to do, and there was so much I needed to do around the house, and really did not feel like driving 5 hours one way to the beach….. but I felt drawn to the beach… so I went.

2. Listen to your dreams. (like: night time asleep dreams) Dreams, if you let them, can solve all those problems you think you can’t figure out. Friday night I spent with my best friend Karen (and her wonderful daughter) . It was relaxing and wonderful, and then I fell asleep and dreamed a silly dream, very vivid, and very real, and the answer to my work situation was in that dream. The dream was not about work it was about, some relative dying and leaving me custody of their child. This child was very unique and different from me, and required a different approach when communicating with her. (the whole dream was actually about learning how to communicate differently. ) When I woke up: My friend said… well the child is your job, and you just need to learn how to communicate differently to / with them…..duh, light bulb… yes!

Then I left there and drove to the beach to inspect the house we had rented for the week this summer in July. It was awesome. And I felt joy and hope, and excitement looking forward to when all my kids and grandchildren might be together. From there I went to visualize the club house where we are having a family reunion that same week, and also got excited and hopeful, that we were going to have a blast.

3. Having something fun to look forward to is important.

I met up with a sister who lives there, and we decided to have lunch. She picked the place, and it just happened to be at a restaurant right next door to my favorite shop. I poked my head in and asked how long they would be open and they said only to 5p. It was 4p then, and I said, well I will have to catch you next time; Just going into lunch with my sister. And they said, “we will wait for you” wow.

4. All things are as they are supposed to be, and sometimes the impossible happens. I did go back at 5 and there was a psychic / healer I have talked to before and decided on a whim to get a reading. This blog post was actually inspired by that reading, and will share, but first want to finish about my great weekend……And my insights.

Saturday night I spent with my sister. At her house: laughing and having a great time. Learned things about her I did not know, and then had breakfast with her daughter and her kids and one boyfriend the next day. People I hardly knew really, but felt such a connection with, and was so aware of the power of connection and tribe.

5. Tribes are so important. Tribes come from genetics, from belief sharing, from profession sharing and from pleasure sharing….but everyone needs tribal connection and it was so empowering and inspiring to be with people and share love. The reunion I am planning, gets exhausting, cause of how much effort tit is to convince people that it’s worth the time and the money to make this trip. The potential to experience love and to get to know people that you don’t know but are connected to on some level is just awesome. I really hope everyone connected to Elsie and Myrle English will come with love and openness and expectation that there will be gifts in this experience…..

Then I left there and drove down to Wilmington to see an old friend. And meet the people she lives with, who are definitely now new friends. And there was more love. I also saw a daughter of another friend, as we sat around and told stories, the love and laughter and connection just began to immerge.

6. Tribes are so important. Being with a tribe member and sharing and loving and laughing is at the essence of life. I think isolation is a destructive intruder. Friends and family and groups of people who share love, is at the core of human existence.

My second book is called “finding the tribe” And as I write this, it becomes apparent that attracting the right tribe members into your life, is far more important than attracting prosperity. I can see into the future, rich and I living on a big piece of land, with many houses, and many people just showing up, and sharing the land and sharing the love, and becoming a tribe.

I came home from the beach with a healed heart. From the love and the connection of so may cool people, from being at the beach; And from being open to intuition, and new experience.

But before I close, I want to share the pinnacle of the experience and describe the reading I had by the psychic. (Any of you who truly know who I am, will relate to this and go wow…….that psychic knew her stuff.)

So as we were abstractly exchanging information, about the struggles in my life: the psychic and I: She said: “well this is karma stuff. You will not move forward to the next level of vibration before you finish what is going on right now. This is coming from another life time.” So I sarcastically said: “So what the hell happened in that life time that has caused me to be so stuck…?” and poof… she went off into a trance…… and began to speak to me about that life time: And I became speechless, as I was remembering everything she was saying, even before she said it. And the emotion of this completely paralyzed me. And when she was done… I was peaceful and aware that this was a possibility, and now I am open and on a mission to resolve this.

Here is what she said to me.

“You were in a tribe. You were in your early twenties, and a male. You were drawn to work with the tribal healer: and older woman with long gray braids, with much wisdom and love. She was teaching you about healing. She was preparing you to be the tribe shaman, which you were open and ready to be. It came with great cost, because the other males were warriors or hunters and leaders. And you were different. They teased you and bullied you, but you had a resolve to rise to this gift and calling to be the tribal medicine man. But before you were ready, or before you were fully prepared to take on this roll, she left you abruptly. And you were devastated. And tried to finish what she started, but were just not prepared. There was a huge piece of preparation missing.

You tried to stay the course, but one day while paddling in some rapids you drowned in a waterfall. You just gave up and said, I can not do this.”

As she was describing this, it felt like a place in the Dominican that Rich and I were going to hike to. And I just got this overwhelming sense that if we had gone there this weekend, I would have died there again.

Anyway, she went on to say, that I have been called again to be a shaman, and a healer, and currently get teased a lot for my “quirky “ beliefs, but just can’t get there, because I am missing a piece.

She said, I have been looking my whole life for that healer lady to finish my apprenticeship, so that I could take on this role and in his life and finish that karma. She said I have had many mentors and heroes in my life, who I have looked to for that inspiration, and they give me good information, but never what I really needed, and I get discouraged and detached from them. She went on to say, that this teacher person, is about to show up in my life again,. That I have not yet met her, (or him) but am about to and will know her (him) immediately, and the journey will pick up where it left off, and the fulfillment that I have looked for my whole life will be attained.

Whew…….can not tell you when anything has ever hit me so accurately in the heart…

And my human head, says, whether or not any of that is true is irrelevant, someone put into a package a feeling I have, and I walked away from there hopeful and validated.

7. Ask and you shall receive. I asked for wisdom. It came in a strange package. Because I trusted my intuition,….. And today I feel peace.

Hope, and connection, and wisdom may just be around the corner for you. Ask, and then trust you intuition, and doors and windows, and life may open up before you.